Fragile Heart

I dislike to admit how fragile is my heart...because it makes me looked so weak and need protections, which in fact I don't...But this time, I can't deny that my heart is really just that fragile.

I would like to say that I am a very soft-hearted person, at this moment you make me angry and sad but if you use the right way comfort me back I can forget what you did to me easily, I am really like this.. Just like how she did, always said and did something hurt me badly, I treat her as my true best friend although I always said something bad about her, but yet she is important in my heart.

That night, she was get hurt by her another friend, and to show how much she treated the friend so well, she listed all the things she did to her, took care of her when she was sick; shared with her everything I gave to her; and etc..and at the end, she added one sentence " Don't say others, even my best friend Tan Li Wing I also never treat her so good la!"

Ouch!! To emphasize something, she knew clearly how much I dislike she always mention her thing with the friend in front of me, but yet she still doing it, then somemore have to add on the last sentence, OUCH!! At the moment i really feel myself so pathetic, I seem like just an extra one to let people make comparison only. Can you understand the feeling? I mean, since you always said I am your best friend and even your family member, but why again & again you doing things hurt me badly? And you know clearly those words would hurt me, don't you?

I am a noobie, I believe what people said easily, when you said I am your best friend your family member, without second thought, I really believe it with my whole true heart... Even things you did repeatedly hurting me, I will still finding reasons for me to comfort myself you are not on purpose..

But this time, perhaps I had feel enough with what you did to me till I feel how exhausted is my heart.. I started to doubt what you said to me, and all you did made me began to doubt who I am actually to you and aware me that it's time to change my attitude to you, this person d..

I am noob, but I am not cold-blooded, I have feeling and thoughts like you did. I don't voice out what I heard;saw; & know, doesn't mean that I don't aware of anything, but is giving both of us a chance again, but it's enough now, what I know now is that I have to make necessary changes to get along with you.

Do you love changes? No, I don't! But I know its a Must for me to chnage now to avoid any further wound to me from you..

If your heart are too fragile & sensitive, you will just be too easy to get hurt and ur fragile heart might break into pieces=( It's time to train my heart..=) ♥♥