Terrible Life

Exam period isn't my favourite all the time.. or I should say it is not all ours favourite!

Trying the same thing again that is putting all those stuffs I have learned in these 14 weeks in my mind for a 2.5hours examination.. hmm..that is so called in chinese "台上一分钟，台下十年功" the only phrase best suit the situation now.. or perhaps it should be "临时抱佛脚"..aikss! Whatever it be.. its just so SUCKS!

Having terrible life again whenever there is the exam period. My day time and night time have totally being upside down. Coffee everynight...8am become my sleeping time.. my room is in mess.. I have no idea how long i Din't mop my room ady.. =( Feel so bad...

I have facing all those notes everyday.. all the day.. and it makes me really feel so sick.. hmmm.. and perhaps facing them too long, I started to loss my concentration now.. Started to feel like wanna relax and sleep all the time. Keep feeling exhausted even though I slept for a long time. Yet, I just have to force myself can't being so.. I found that somebody that I see that person as my enemy is really working hard... Done all her revision and past year papers but I'm still like a big tortoise chasing after a rabbit...

Stress..Pressure.. I know that is not right but I am still holding a great expectation or a Must for myself not to fall out of the Dean List.. I am afraid that if I relax this moment, the next moment when I check the results, my place in the list will be replaced my so called "Enemy"... No way! It can't happen! It must not happen..

I am good at telling people don't give themselves so much pressure, yet I am doing the same thing on myself.. hey.. I'm really distracted right now! What I should do to get back my concentration to those notes again?

Get frustrated when my SMS tone kept on ringing.. Especially is somebody.. just non-stop. But I am glad that I have success to ignore it..until I have done my things to reply those messages.. I know.. next Saturday I am going back home.. but don't know why it seem still so far for me... maybe that is the impact of examination.

My family facing a big trouble.. I just wish everything can back to the starting point like usual...

I have been wasting a lot of time to find excuses for myself to slack for a moment... i know i shouldn't...but i don't know what I should do... Feeling so tired.. Don't ever feel like want to touch any notes.. don't feel like want to wake up.. Feel so exhausted for physical and mentally.. I wish I can cry out to let go all my depression. and the greatest problem is that I can't even cry..

I'm seriously having terrible life now.. Can I just be tougher to pass through all these? It's gonna be fine.. I have to convince myself in this way.. I wish I can. =)