My Happiness. My Life

I feel myself has been wasted too much of time spending on unhappiness instead of happiness.

I can sense that the 2years ago me is slowly crawling out again from deep inside my heart...seem like trying to push me far away from happiness and pull me into misery. I become so sensitive so fragile again like just a small thing will put me into great depression.

Somebody teach me to Minimize unhappiness & Enlarge all my happiness is the way to stay happy always. I am learning... But emotion is never under my control =)

There are too much of things I have to concern about. & the reasons I concern ,hurt and depress for is due to I CARE! =)

How do you actually feel when someone you nominated as your best friend is getting farther & farther from you? Like you trying to fix the thing but then things getting worse & even out of control. I think f every possible way to fix the thing.. I dream of during sem break I am going to meet you find you shopping.. try on clothes... exchange opinions~ hesitate which piece to buy, hey... but what? but things just can't go on like I wish for.

Seriously, I feel so sick feel so bad holing it like its become so meaningless d.But how could I just let it go? Let go never be an easy job for me. Because I am reluctant to taste again the feel of missing someone important in my life.

I don't know how things will be in the future. I will never waste my time type a whole long message for you telling you how I feel and think because You will never able to understand what is in my mind. You are the one turn my efforts into pieces.. I pick it up but you push it all away again.

My holidays shouldn't be wasted on you. Maybe off FB is the best way =) So cheer up and enjoy your holidays before busy weeks starts.

*I always think and care of how people around me will feel when I wana do something, but people will never do the same like you did, so what for think so much for others? *