Me Myself

Another tough night for me...

Things, Troubles seem like endless waiting for me ahead...

I just like have to stand by 24hours for all the coming troubles.. like fighting for a war.

Heart feel so pain tonight.. Reasons are so many. BUt I can't list them down here..

Another surprise call from my gor, Shu hao^^ Surprised because we have lost contact for almost 1 year. He asked me why I removed my profile pic.. I feel so happy at least I know someone noticed that. Why I removed it? Because I feel that I lost my track and I am still in the journey finding myself back. I feel ridiculous showing the profile pic to show others who I am while myself don't even know who myself was...Its really meaningless putting there. He told me that he don't feel good when he saw I removed my pic... he don;t like that I have changed so much.. He told me that my smile can actually make people around me feel happy as well. I received such a warm call when I was so depressed. He don't know that I was in bad mood at that time but he just approached me at the right time. I am so blessed having people concerning me who is miles apart from me.

He asked me to think positively... dun try to make any changes to suit others but just to be myself. He said he wish to see me put back my profile pictures... Gor, I promise, it wont take a long time. Tomorrow, I will put it back after I have clear my mind tonight. ;)

I have went through too much this few weeks.. I feel so exhausted.. until I really feel so tired being a Human Being, (Hey chill, I am no going to do any silly things,no worry ;) ) I am seeking and exit for myself from all these miserable life.. the only method I know is to care less. & be just the way I am. =)

I know some changes are happens around me tremendously and I can do is to adapt myself  to it. Let it go & move on. Its time to stop behave like this. Behave like I am so pity so pathetic hoping for more concerns. At least I know, who are really care of me this few weeks. =) I am blessed... I am trying to enlarge all the happiness I have.

& Oh ya, I just knew that a happy or unhappy day s all depends on myself. If you choose to bring a smile with you, your day will be just so wonderful. Smile to everyone no matter how bad is the situation because you re the one and only one can affect your own emotions.

Today is the Last Night I behave like a coward that lost all my sweet smiles my confident! Wasted so many times crying and thinking nonsense stuffs instead of study for my test. I should make my tears worth for something.

Hey, I am so looking forward for a brand new me! I know it's not as easy as I thought, but I know, I can do it because I am who I am!

Tonight besides being so depressed, I feel extremely warm with the concerns from my gor. =)) What I need is to clear my mind today and be a whole new me tomorrow.

Good Nitez world. Good Bye pity Tan Li wing! Hello welcome Cheerful Li Wing! ^^