Saturday, July 7, 2012

Enjoy Solving Problems?

Life full of tests and assignments begin again...One done today afternoon, 4 more to go; 2 presentations and 5 more assignments. @@

I was busying how to get things done but at the same time someone around me busying thinking how to EMO! I mean..If u feel emotional for sth meaningful like very bad results, not feeling well, or any other matter with greater meanings I would like to accept it. But she emo for sth really really pointless and meaningless.

Things happened because of Flea Market in UTAR. One night before that she was the one suggested to go together, alright, all of us agreed and the next morning when I woke up saw her message said she not feeling well doesn't feel like going anymore. Ok, people sick so it's ok. Then, I received call..asked whether I wana go, and I realized that another friend sleep at midnight and woke up early in the morning, it's quite troublesome if purposely cycle to campus. So I decided not going anymore. Then received another message from Her... She said actually she lied, she has no money d and dun feel like going but afraid we all dun wana go cause of her again. I started to feel frustrated, what is it so big deal if don't wana go d until have to lie to us? then the next few second argument happened AGAIN! for because of my another two friends only let me know the reasons they don't wana go d and didn't tell her. She feel that we didn't respect her. What the hell is this! I tried all my best keep explaining to her that is me asked them first but she getting more n more over. Then, Exploded! I mean ME! I can't bear it anymore. The moment since I woke up till now I haven even take my breakfast i already have to deal with all your ridiculous emotional stuffs! I get really angry and I asked her next time anytime please don't involve me in. if she wants to know something please do go ask them herself, I won't waste my precious time explaining all those rubbish and craps to her anymore. I lost control and I feel so headache! my whole morning and afternoon ruined because of her again! I ate panadol to calm down myself n relieve my headache.. but my phone message still rang NON-STOP! I switched to silent, and I cried because I feel really sick she knew that I was sick that time yet she still keep finding things to argue for pointless stuffs! I 'm seriously so Annoyed and Frustrated! I was thinking to throw my laptop and phone away leave me far away all those troubles!

When I woke up, 10 messages from her! OMG! and from the moment start, I started to feel she is really scary, I don't know why she have to make a small matter become so big deal and make our friendship so complicated?My mood spoilt for whole day~ARGH! really feel like wanna shout out loud "BEH TAHAN AA~~~~"

and story haven ended yet, at night she still unwilling to give up and continue to find issues to argue, until I really fed up.. And I feel so speechless =.=''' Oh gosh~ Please let me go! can you please?

Just ended one test today, couldn't go home make me feel so bad, when reached campus, saw her black face again. When I asked her are you okay? she just replied "Ok, no worry" alright then, just ignored her, and when I was taking nap, when I just able to fall asleep, GOSH! Message tone rang again again and AGAIN!! seriously, what the hell is going on! Again her! She said she going to tell me what is her problem and asked me don't angry or emo...and yesterday night when I was studying she suddenly message me said she feel herself like having mental problems, at night keep crying and she don't have mood to study! The thing I Hate the most! again repeating the same thing and when results released, someone working hard couldn't get what she want, but she stil can get good results after disturbed others! how Unfair is it!

I was trying to ignore all those messages, but it keep ring, and I couldn't fall asleep anymore. Can you imagine how frustrated am I? And now I even afraid to hear my phone ring and afraid of receiving message from her. It's really like a nightmare haunting you days and nights, just Non-STop!! NON-STOP u know?! and then when I woke up, my house Internet Line have limited access again, don't know which stupid brainless one limit the line for their own sake again! Come on la!

I'm really done with all those dramas acted by her! Please stop it now. I already get frustrated and she really reached my limit, I exploded once that means I really no longer can bear anymore after two years bearing her dramas so long...repeating repeating and Repeating! And definitely NO during this busy periods! If you re really so free can you please spend your time on assignment and get them done also, and if you done, yet still so free please take my part also!

Lecturer told us to enjoy in solving problems,  but I wish to tell him, "Sir, if you keep repeating solving the old-same problems which are actually no problem at all, are you sure you still can enjoy?" Please, I really have to figure out how to help her out of those negative and scary thoughts.. Please, can you don't make any problems during this busy period?

Fed-Up... Feeling extremely exhausted and have no energy to do anything anymore... =((

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不舍。如释重负

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