Treasures. Hearts

Well, I have been emo-ing and complaining alot of stuffs lately. But I knew It shouldn't be that way. 

I found that this time finals I was sort of easily lost my concentration for study..Eventhough I off my lappy, and put my phone far away from me, but yet, my hand will lost control to press the open button my TV in my room =.='' and this make me have the mind to remove the TV from my room, but yet it is the only thing can keep me companion whenever I miss home.. So, Its my own fault, not for complaining, just wish I could really find back my study mood before it is too late. 

Done my first paper, Financial Accounting Framework II, accounts were all balanced, but the final answer correct or not it still an uncertainty, but I'm quite satisfied with my own performance. Hope when the results released it wont turn me down. Alright 4 more papers to go, and now 11 days more to go. But I'm not going to elaborate more on this issue...so,skip all these.

Yesterday my friend, Vinci were discussing with me regarding whether she should buy the ticket back to Sabah during this 2 weeks sembreak. The concern of her was the ticket was too expensive. Hmmm, I understand her concerns, but then, I recalled back of a scene in a HK drama, On Call 36Hrs. One of the lesson I learn from there was we will never know & never have the ability to predict what will happen to us just the next second; this morning we can walk out from our house safely, but we will never have the ability to guarantee that we will be home safely too. The point is, we can't predict and foresee our future. And this make me aware of how important was it to treasure every moment we own with the one we hearts a lot! And I told her this, we can't know how many times left for us to meet with our parents, its not having pessimistic thought or cursing, but it was a truth. 

Since I moved out from house and came here for further studies, I recognized how warm was it everytime before exam I have parents to remind me to rest earlier and I have home-made chicken soup for me; I recognized how lucky am I when I wake up every morning, there are breakfast prepared by mummy for me; and I recognized how good was it when I back home late, there are a call from parents to urge me home. I might lost a lot of freedom when I back home compare to I'm here I have my own transport to go wherever I want and how late I like, but yet, I am just so in love with the feeling of being cared and being controlled by the one I hearts~ parents, sister, and my boyfriend. 

Each time I reached my Klang home safely, I will feel just so thankful to my beloved Guan Yin Ma so much for blessing me and give me one more chance to stay with my family. Just like 2 weeks ago, a simple random BBQ gathering made me feel that, we don't really need a lot of wealth or prosperity, because rich people not necessary will be happy all the time too, average-income family have our own entertainment too! Our entertainment perhaps may not be as high class as Golf, or any club, but as long as we feel satisfy and happy, that's it! I might not be able to have the chance like others to further studies to overseas, yea, I'm not from a high-income family, just an average one, but I still can study well and learn what people learn here. 

When I first to here, I told my best friend, polar bear I cycled to campus, he laughed non-stop! He asked me why sound like so "charm" and are you now living in a jungle-like town? then he told me at Inti-Subang a girl cycled to school everyday and she became the topic of everyone! Conversely, people become our focus when they drive luxury car like Merz or BMW~ This is so called--Differences of ours! But these don't make any part of our body different, we are still the same own a pair of eyes, a nose and a mouth. So, not a shame for me. Yea, I admit sometimes will still envy people own the chance to go overseas for studies.. =))

I am not rich in terms of monetary, sometimes I have to be very careful in my expenses so that I won't be a burden for my dad, its just my own mission for myself. I got the PTPTN from government and I am a finance student, I should have better knowledge in financial management than others, well~perhaps now is a little bit not so good in that =x but I'm learning.. And I'm rich in other dimension, I have a lot of love ones surrounded me.. When I emo people will care of me, when I cried, there are people offer themselves for me to lean on; when I feel alone, I have a mummy, daddy sister and Dabii let me to phone them. My mind was filled with a lot of memories, sweet or bad, they made me grow matured. I owned a lot than others, lot until I can't list them all out, But the main property of mine is my family and my boyfriend, I swear, I will never find another one like they do to care and love me all the time. 

So, I told myself, no matter how, family are always the First place in my heart. No matter how, I will grab every opportunities available to back home to accompany them, because as I said, I will never know how much chances are left there for us to stay together. Of course, I pray to Guan Yin Ma all the time to let my family healthy all the time! But in reality, I just wish I can do anything to make my family happy, no matter what cost I Have to pay, they were all worthed! Because, I treasure them as the most important pieces in my life, and I just heart them more than they can imagine! ♥ ♥

It's a long windy post again, but I just have the inspiration to write this in a sudden, because my boyfriend is leaving M'sia to Thailand today, and I want him to know, no matter where you are, our hearts will never fall apart~ ♥ ♥ I Love you! and I Love My Family! =)