Saturday, April 28, 2012

I Miss~

Finally, I have forgotten how long I didn't meet with you, exams make my life kinda messy and upside down, day time become my sleeping time and become active at night, even till dawn... And yesterday you finally back from Johor, it shorten the distance between us. =)) And suddenly received your message said you are coming to find me, I was shocked and don't know what I should do.  Of course I was so happy, but it is really tiring journey have to drive to here and you are just back from a tiring trip. 

I called you and asked you not to come, but you said you already on the way and cant turn back anymore, asked me to concentrate study first. That moment, I cried.. I don't know the exact reason made me cried, perhaps too touched? Too happy? or I'm really too miss you.. I get really excited and feel like unbelievable kept on reviewed back those messages you sent me... 
"Xiao bii got miss dabii ma?"
"eeeyor I miss dabii alot de eh>.<"
"den now dabii go to find xiaobii ok ma?"
"huh?seriously de aa dabii?"
"Serious de lo xiao bii~dabii now go find xiao bii ya"

And then, 11sth you arrived without any luggage along,and finally you are here in front of me... just too bad that you ssaid tomorrow 12noon will need to leave d. We hugged each other tightly, and it was just like a dream.. 

Not even more than 12 hours we met, and then you are back, and I feel so reluctant to let you leave, and the night before, I can't sleep, I was awake for the whole night, looking at you, touch you eyebrows, I was thinking never will find a guy like you will treasure me in this way.. Although just for a while, but you are still willing to drive for 2 and half hours just to see me before you fly. And after you back, I sit on my bed and told myself, "Alright, take a nap, and when you wake up, dabii is not here anymore and everything are just a dream" But when I woke up, I still miss you so much. =(( I couldn't concentrate to do my things, I just knew that I really miss you a lot! Although we are just can't meet for 6weeks, but I just feel so sad >< 

You will never know, how much you really meant for me.. I found your shadow in every corner of my room, and now, I really miss you so much. 

And, I miss home badly, almost everyday I called mum, I bought my ticket to back Klang on the day I finished my exam. I don't even wana stay at here for a second more. I rather back to home and lose my freedom, but yet I still feel I'd like it. Gonna have a sembreak without dabii.. I looked at my ticket and keep convincing and comforting myself that just 12 days more, hold on, and I just have to find way to force myself to study, I'm not going to lose to anyone,yea... 

Dabii, you're going to leave Msia tml, too bad I can't follow to send you to airport, But I will be there to welcome you when you are back! <3 I miss you so much, promise me to take good care of yourself there and be safe. I love you! =))

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