My Life

Finally~ Tonnes of assignments and midterm tests are all over now~ hehee~ I have around one month "holiday" before my final. Alright, not really holiday but still consider as a little break time after busy for one month for non-stop continuous tests. =D Back home right after I finish my last paper, fall asleep immediately once I enter the train, sleep for almost the 2 hours journey as a result for study whole night and didn't sleep. I'm having insomnia~ haha XD Pimples are found on my face =(( Ugly~

Back home for 2 main purpose, to see my family and for grandma's birthday. I missed her birthday celebration once for my jimui's birthday. But this time, although I'm still facing the same dilemma whether to stay down celebrate for her or back home celebrate for grandma, but the hesitation doesn't hold long, because I don't want any regret in my life, I know grandma's health getting worse lately, I wish to see her smile broadly and happily when see all her children, grandchildren and even grand-grandchildren celebrate for her. So, I made my decision, and yet, I'm happy with my decision.

This is a super big family! 10 kids from grandma~ and then branches and branches out~ so... this is really a big family at mummy's side. Before I back, I got a message from my cousin, the one that used to play with me since we are kids, we are really the closest one! Last time during CNY, we will for sure wear the same pattern of clothes, just looked like twins~ and everytime CNY is definitely a best chance for us to get crazy, a lot of crazy ideas and things to play together. But now, getting lesser. But that day she said she wish we can wear the same color cloths and take some photos and get crazy just like last time, at last we chosen Pink ^^ and photo session of course! 

 

Back to my grandma birthday, erm.. some argument happened within this big family long time ago, and along the dinner, I can see how obvious is the division. Initially, this is a happy family, but jealousy I think ruined it up, physically we are at the same place, but mentally, for sure not! I'm sure deep inside grandma's heart, she feel sad to see this too. Sometimes I wish I have the ability and power to pull them all together again, but even myself would never forgive "the person", ever in my life! So, it's just a dream, We ain't god, we are not kind enough to put down everything so I guess, just let it be and play our own role well.  Well, a lot of delicious food like Big-Whole-Piece of Abalone! O-O haha! I got back all the nutrition I loss at Kampar in the dinner. hmmm~ Its been a long time never feel the warmth of family gathering. Be frank, I don't like it either, because I will always be the one that get neglected by people and sit at corner just like noone~ but, for grandma, I willing to do so. During birthday song section, kids sing out really loudly and they get really excited when saw the big cake! They can't wait to blow off the candles because they thought is their birthday~haha cute ^^ Somehow, I saw grandma laughing happily and hugging the little baby, Wow~ It's really so nice =D I love the feeling when everyone was smiling happily~ It's really so good ^^

This time couldn't stay long, but the only feedback I got after long time din't meet with my relatives is that "Why are you so thin? why are you getting smaller in size?" *cough* should I feel happy for this? @@ mummy said that I am too skinny~ I knew it too, but I really eat accordingly and I have the habit for supper, but I really wondering where are all those nutrition now?~.~

Anyway, after a long time never meet parent, when I saw them, I get super excited, a lot of things to tell them, and I hugged them ^^ hehe~ I just feeling so good to get home and all my stress and unhappy things are just being throw away~ It's really just so good and it's really hard to use words to describe it ^^ hehe.

I'm waiting for the next time to back home and hang out with my dear Chin ^^

 

My New Profile Picture after hair cut~Not much different though~=x haha